Grade: 11th grade
Age: 17

Human Nature

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If there’s a wide diversity of opinions regarding one topic, it’d have to be the topic of religion.
When some people hear the word ‘religion’, some people become uncomfortable, and wish to immediately change the subject. Others wish to immediately boast about their religion. Others choose to stay silent, not wishing to offend anyone or not wishing to be judged.
Religion has always been somewhat of an issue for me. My family is Muslim, which means that we believe in one God, Allah, and that the Prophet Muhammad is his message. To be a Muslim means to submit your will to the will of God.
Now, I have always believed in God until I became a teenager, when I started to question, as everyone does at some point in their lives; either verbally or in their minds. Some people are scared to question God, and maybe it’s because of their parents.
If you’re like me, then you have strict parents who firmly believe in their religion. Sometimes it can be extremely daunting to ask your parents a question about religion, not knowing their reaction.
Now, it’s not the topic of religion that’s an issue for me, but rather, it’s the topic of God itself.
Since we grew out of childhood and started to hit puberty and become teenagers, we’ve been told that fairy-tales do not exist. That there’s no such thing as controlling the wind, or controlling the water, or any of the other elements. Adults tell us all of these things, yet some of them want us to believe in an even higher power, and grand stories told from a Holy Book.
Is it any wonder that we question?
My parents have always told me that God has all of our lives written out in this enormous book, but if that’s true… then do we even have free will if God already has everything written down?
Then there is the matter of male and females not being treated equally. In our religion, we are forbidden to date. There’s a dating stage, and that’s a stage where couples do everything but kiss. It’s really like middle-school crushes during this stage. Muslim females are required to marry Muslim males, but yet… Muslim males are not required to marry Muslim females.
Is that really a fair decision that this ‘just’ God has made?
All of the other rules are fairly reasonable: don’t eat pork, don’t get tattoos, always cover yourself, etc.
However, this marrying rule is just plain ridiculous.
So can you really blame me for questioning my beliefs?
There has been a time where I believe that I had a spiritual experience, however, which made my faith in God expand more.
One day, in the summertime, I woke up, got out of bed, and immediately went to my window to check on my dog, which I normally do on a daily basis. I look down, and I see this figure. The figure was pure white, and it appeared to be kneeling down as you would do to pick something up. It’s back had something attached to it on its sides, but I couldn’t see too well because the figure was glowing white. I only looked at the figure for about two seconds, however, before the figure flew away at the speed of light. Now, to make sure I wasn’t imagining anything, as I had just woken up, I kept my eyes open the entire time, and I am certain of what I saw.
I believe that I saw an Angel or spiritual being of sorts.
However… why was it kneeling outside of my window?
Now, the kneeling part is significant in our religion, as when we pray sometimes we have to kneel down. So perhaps that could have been a warning of sorts… or a foreshadowing of the future.
What makes me skeptical about this whole ordeal is the fact that in our Holy Book, humans are not supposed to be able to see Angels, or other otherworldly creatures. Our Holy Book states that God has placed a veil over our eyes that we cannot see, which is why we are not able to see ghosts, demons, angels, etc.
So what was the figure that I saw?
I believe that it was some sort of sign, as I was in seventh grade when this incident occurred, and I was questioning my belief quite frequently.
Since all of my life I have been told that Islam is the right religion, this has made me skeptic of other religions and their beliefs. So even if I chose to convert, I’d constantly be questioning that religion. So in a way, I’ve been brainwashed all of my life to believe in this one religion and participate in their practices.
I am skeptic about the Holy Books in every religion, as you don’t know if those were texts written by humans or by God himself. Even if there is geographical evidence, that evidence could’ve easily been fabricated.
If there is one consistency in this world, it’s that humans do lie.
Some of these texts were written thousands of years ago, so how do we know if they are real or not? How do we know that this story actually happened, that this man was actually cured, that this person was actually possessed by a demon?
The simple fact is that we don’t know.
Yet, they still expect us to firmly believe in those stories.
Overall, I wouldn’t say that I believe in God, but I do believe in a higher power. After all, everything around us couldn’t have just appeared out of nowhere. Everything, at least in the human mind, has to have a beginning, and apparently God is an exception.
God was always there, even before he created all of the planets, all of the galaxies that we have yet to discover, he was always there.
Is it any wonder why we’re questioning, regardless of all the signs God is practically throwing at our faces?

One thought on “Human Nature

  1. The speaker brings up several valid points about the nature of religious stories and practices in an imperfect society. This entry could benefit from delving into these topics deeper.

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